Well, I’ve been mulling this post off and on all this week… why this week…? Well, cos it is a year ago – precicely – since I was diagnosed with the “Big D”… course it was a few months still till I learn it was type 1 diabetes, but it was this week I got the general diabetes diagnosis…
I can’t pinpint the exact day: mostly cos my GP’s surgery seemed to think they were just informing me I’d stubbed my toe: I remember clearly needing to go in for a re-check on Valentines day; cos I remember thinking: how romantic – the most exciting thing I have going on today is getting my blood sugars re-tested…! And I also know that was a Thursday last year – and that weekend I went to London to spend the night dancing away with my most fabulous of fabulous gay friends… but I’m pretty sure they rang me on the Friday before I left for London to say my result was high; and I needed to book an appointment with the doctor to discuss – and I remember thinking: well that’s no surprise – and sort of deciding not to worry about it till I saw the doctor – as I was determined to enjoy gadding about London Town… :-)
Then… I clearly remember when I did go in to see me GP: cos he was like “OK, so you are diabetic” (I had said I suspected I was in my last appointment with him; and he said it was *highly* unlikely) – and then just garbled on about medications; as if it was no big deal that he’d just told me something that would likely affect my life forever… I remember sitting there thinking “don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry” – as well as “it’s your fault…” – both of which were highly useful thoughts to be having. Not.
Anyway, if you’ve followed this blog; you’ll know I then spent about three months thinking I was type 2, and doing *everything* I could to rectify things – before finding out my GAD antibodies were through the roof… and *still* clinging onto being type 2; till finally my c-peptide results showed I was hardly producing insulin; and finally, fully accepting I was type 1… which was a bit of a bumpy ride – but good to be finally (sorta) clear with what I was dealing with.
Along that way I met lots of UBER inspiring and awesome other t1’s – and families of t1’s – and just generally awesome people.
I’ve also had *so much* support – from my darling fiends (thank you) – but also from comparative strangers (CJ, still, thank you) – and often times total strangers… I’m a total softie; and it always touches my heart – thank you ♥
I’ve also had my share of hate mail; but even that I have learnt to hold compassion for: I don’t fully get it – but do get everyone is fighting their own battle – so I’m grateful for the reminders/lessons…
… and along the way, my lil blog has won two awards; the second of which I’ve not yet acknowledged – but both of which I’m super-chuffed about.
I mean it when I say this blog – and it readers – have, at times, been my outlet and source of comfort / strength – for which I shall be eternally grateful: especially though a time that could have so easily been filled with darkness.
… and so, one year on – where am I at…? Well, my blood sugars have *mostly* been stable – they’ve been higher than I’d like at times – but mostly barely have been out of the pre-diabetic range; which given I’ve not used a single medication for; I’m quietly pleased about. If it lasts, great – if it doesn’t; thats a year off medication I gave to my body. Both are good.
– plus, my life overall is more in balance now: I was a *complete* hermit for most of the last year – and also *very* strict on my diet… but all ‘work’ and no play makes Nadia lose herself… I’m gigglishly happy to say both my hermit status, and diet, have chilled a little – and though this sometimes means reassessing how to keep my blood sugars level; the happiness the playtime brings is SO worth it… :-)
So, thats about it – in terms of my one-year-on review; I’m eagerly awaiting to see a Professor who specialises in t1 research; and hopefully will see him soon – which will be interesting – as I’ve not seen a doctor / consultant since last summer…and though I know my blood sugars are relatively stable; I have *no idea* if things like my GAD is going down; or insulin is going up – so I look forward to being a little more “enlightened” on that front – and of course, will keep you posted…
Other than that; I was mulling whether I would have changed this last year… and overall; the answer in no. Would I rather not have diabetes? Hell yes. But would I change the things that have happened as a result of it? Hell no! :-)
I’m not saying it’s always been sweet; but it’s been My Sweet Life…
xo Nadia ox
Some highlights in pictures…